work search my least favorite endeavor

I have been expressing to friends and family that when I work it is to buy time for myself so that I might enjoy the things that I enjoy doing without being restricted to a scheduled work routine. This idea started for me about two years ago when I decided to take off two weeks to just do what I wanted to do instead of immediately search for work and continue with what I had been doing for the majority of my life.

My thinking was that I would write, ride my motorcycle, go fishing, visit with friends, read, swim, and just do what I wanted to do. It did not take very long for me to realize that I was not used to not having work and structure and that within three or four days even though I did have the freedom to do what I chose to do I found myself restless and moderately confused with what to do with my time. There was a period of adjustment in which I started a website and converted a book of poetry that I had written titled Words and Feelings into an audio cd. During this time that I had allowed myself this project took up quite a bit of my time, but it was a freedom that I came to really enjoy.

There came a time where I realized that I needed to balance my life and not have it all leaning to one side or the other. I continued to seek that balance and I am much closer ,or would like to feel that I am much closer now than I was when I cut the tether to the structured daily work routine. I truly do now work to afford time for myself and have come to enjoy that time very much no matter what I'm doing. Throughout my life I have written poetry, prose, short stories, journals, and recordings of some of my life experiences. Part of my time now is spent trying to organize and edit those writings, but I tend to get distracted from that by living and enjoying my life each day.

In addition to this blog, I have started a daily Journal which so far I am being fairly consistent at. Fairly consistent being at least every other day. Just recording my thoughts at this time in my life and what is going on in my life. This has been my way of staying in touch with myself for many years, and will remain my way of keeping the connection.

Almost always it is within my thoughts when I write these journals or blogs or whatever term you wish to use to say hello and how are you, and hope that you are having a good day. Those comments are not so much directed to me but to whoever might read whatever it is that I am recording. We do not know when we express ourselves in this form who might someday come across the writings of a fellow human being and their interpretation and observations of life from their perspective. I have been very fortunate to have many life experiences which have given me my own  view of life, myself, and of fellow human beings.

I am currently seeking employment to buy myself some more time, but realize that the inventory of time is limited for me as it is for us all. Enjoy your time, and enjoy time for yourself , your family and your friends , and even people that you pass along the way, who are all a part of this life and your life.