Friday, July 26, 2013

Emotional cocktail

                                 Emotional cocktail
spent time with my friend as I do now and then,
sharing what we have  of our memories and what we choose to express,
some of the emotions that go with the memories  that are hard to digest,
but as friends we go on, because some emotions need to be released.

When it seems to be difficult and tears are so close, there's something about a friend, that can help you get through and when you add in a hug, a touch, a laugh and a dance when you take your next breath you realize this. You just shared an emotional cocktail and with a friend they can taste so good. There is no set recipe but it seems that as long as love is a part of the ingredient the emotions from those memories are better when shared with someone who cares. Someone who if they could as all friends do would gladly take your pain so you wouldn't have to be sad.

Then sadness is an ingredient in an emotional cocktail that needs to be blended with love, concern, compassion, and understanding that sadness is a part of our emotions and there are things in our past, in our memories that cannot be denied or made light of and that no amount of faith or philosophy will take away the pain. Emotional cocktail I had one just the other night shared with a friend as that's what we do. We try not to have too much and most of the time we do not but now and then. I'm looking for something within and realize that my searching makes what I seek seem out of reach.

When I do not search and try to find the feelings to express I give up that illusion that I am capable on my own of expressing the beauty that is beyond me. It is the realization that beauty comes not from me but as a source available to everyone if they would listen and feel the beauty that is around us and in us but at the same time a gift that we might share and not try to possess exclusively for our own purposes.



I wish to reconnect as often as I possibly can to the source beyond me and beyond you the source that is here ,the source that is love a source that is beauty and I must be ready for that when given freely from that source. My house must be clean my heart must be open I'm just a man and don't say that as an excuse but realize that as a man I'm at constant war at one time or another with myself as I believe both men and women are. I seek peace within myself so that peace can be shared in this form with the people in my life now and the people to come.

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